Don't Wanna Talk About It!

40 Weeks Pregnant

February 27, 2010

Letter to Stella

Dear Stella,
Hi, I am your Mommy. I just wanted to remind you that today is your due date. In case you have never heard of that before, that means you should be born today. Mommy is having a very hard time waiting to meet you. Your Daddy and I are very prepared for you to come into the world and join us. We have everything you need all ready for you. I have loved carrying you around for these 9 months. You are such a special blessing. We love you so much and hope that you are here soon so we can fall in love with you.
Love you,
Mommy

Learning

I am laying here trying to learn to be patient. Trying to let go of my need for control. I know this is an important step, something I will definitely need once Stella is here. I wanted to write some of the things I have enjoyed about pregnancy:

I've enjoyed having a healthy pregnancy without major complications
I have enjoyed knowing that she is a she and being able to get to know her in that small way
I have enjoyed some of the extra attention you get as a pregnant woman
I have enjoyed feeling her move and knowing she is safe

Some things I want to remember about this pregnancy:
I have really had a relatively easy pregnancy
Stella gets the hiccups quite a bit this last trimester
For the longest time she has been head down, butt on my right side, and feet on my left
I have had terrible heartburn
Stella has had a lot of things ready for her for months
I am so blessed to have this time with my baby

I really like this quote I found
Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.
-Robert Brault

So, tonight I am enjoying you, Stella, in my belly.

She is never coming!

Well, I am pretty sure Stella is never coming out! I tried the Scalini Eggplant Parm recipe Thursday night. It was a crazy, long ordeal (3+ hours) to make it, which consisted of the oven catching on fire, and it did NOTHING. It was pretty good though. I have been walking, but that just makes my lower back hurt. The last few days my upper back/shoulders & neck have been really hurting along with my head. Why was I so dumb to think I wouldn't get this far? It was just a feeling, I was sure. If I have to come back into this office NEXT Monday, on MARCH FIRST, I will be one unhappy camper. And that is putting it SUPER nicely. On a side note, whenever Jeff talks to someone about the baby, he calls her "The Kid". I do kind of hope he doesn't keep calling her that once she's born. Right now, I am playing a song for her, to try and coax her out. Buddy Holly, Baby won't you come out tonight. It is on a loop, only been going for about 15 minutes at this point. I wonder how long I can sit here and make her listen to it? At least a good solid hour. I am 39 weeks 2 days today, seeing Beth at 10:50. I think I am going to get a check today. Also going to check with her about how long past 2-27 I will be allowed to go.

38 Weeks & 2 days

I am doing better today. I am just keeping in mind it has to happen sooner or later. Taking one day at a time. It snowed a lot last night and today. Total we are supposed to get 5-9 inches or something. I stayed home from work because the roads are not good. Storms are supposed to put people into labor, but apparently I am immune to that. So, I am ready, prepared, totally confident just waiting for Stella to be ready!!

Starting to get discouraged

Ok, so I really thought Wednesday night that labor was starting. Obviously it was not. But since then I have been much, much more uncomfortable. I am just having a lot of emotions, and I am really down tonight. I had been keeping a good attitude, but it's faded. I WANT TO BE IN LABOR! I was doing good, taking it one day at a time, I don't know what went wrong today. My head has really been aching, and I did a bunch of rearranging in the kitchen. I am very tired. Maybe these sad feelings are just from exhaustion. I am going to lay down soon. As soon as this heartburn medicine has a chance to kick in. I really hope when I wake up tomorrow I don't still feel this crappy! :( I am 38 weeks today by the way. Stella is super duper low. In closing, I would like to say one more time, I WANT TO BE IN LABOR!

Me at 36 weeks. I will be 37 weeks tomorrow. FULL TERM! Yay! I also found out that my Group B Strep test was NEGATIVE, doesn't get better than that! lol That means no pole to pull around during delivery! Today is the 5th, my first predicted (by someone other than a doctor) delivery date. Also, last night I watched Everybody Loves Raymond and it was the episode where Deborah is pregnant with Allie, and they specifically say she has 3 weeks left. And then she goes into labor. She also has her in the police car, but hey. A sign is a sign! No sign of my mucus plug or anything though. She was being crazy active yesterday, and my back was bothering me way more. And I am for sure peeing more, but I know that is normal since her head is on my bladder, and she likes to put CRAZY pressure on it.

36 Week Ultrasound

Went for my 36 week ultrasound yesterday to get an idea of Stella's size. First off, she is still a girl! Whew! The scans put her between like 5 lb 6 oz to 6 lb 2 oz give or take 8 oz. So she is close to 50th percentile. The fluid levels measured good, not too much or too little. Oh, and we could see hair on her head. That was neat, it probably won't be a ton. I do hope it's brown though, not blond or red. My mom and Jeff's mom went with us to the ultrasound. I thought they would enjoy it, and I didn't think Jeff was going to be going. But since he is laid off, he got to go too. I am super tired today, don't feel that great. It is getting close to the 5th, which I did get a prediction for. Actually, really early on a dismass worker at the shelter said I would have her on the 5th. Then, the next predicted day is the 10th. I had a dream about the 10th. Oh, at my appointment with Beth on Monday, I did have her do a cervical check. She said I am a -1 station, 80% effaced and fingertip dilated. I have only told Jeff & Kim about it though. I don't want anyone else to know. I don't plan on getting checked any more. I just wanted to know if all the pains and pressure was actually resulting in something. So, now that I know it is, I will just wait for the day! I won't mind too much if I go to the 27th because I want to be certain she doesn't have to go to a NICU. If she did, I think she would have to be transferred to Kosair, and that would break my heart. Oh, and I think since her size is so normal, even if a few of my numbers are high I don't think it would cause much concern. I will say, I can't wait to be off this stupid diet! AHHH!

Her Girl Parts!

Hard to see, but her face in the top right

This is an Arm & Fist on the end

Baby Shower

Here are photos from my shower on the 10th thrown by my Mom & cousin Melissa! It went really well, and I got a lot of nice stuff!! People who attended were:

My Mom

Melissa Sinkhorn

Alex Sinkhorn

Ellie Sinkhorn

Carolyn Gardner

Christine Hutcherson

Susan Kuntz

Austin Kuntz

Theresa Pierce

Juli Pierce

Gracie Pierce

Lou Pierce

Linda Westenhofer

Linda Lose

Carrie Palmer

LuAnn Clark

Erin Clark

Tara Chesser

Karen Wood

Valerie Edgerly

Gail Jett