Worst Day Ever

I had to leave Stella at daycare today. This is so horrible, how do people do it. It is just the worst feeling. What if this daycare sucks, how would I know? OMG I HATE IT! I cried at the daycare, and in the car. When I got to work, I went to open the side door like I was going to get her out, out of habit. I don't want her to be there with strangers all day. I feel really guilty that we are mainly using this place because it's cheap. It is only 10 a.m. I don't know how I am going to make it. I want her to be with me. I want to get a part time job and keep her with me more. Too bad that's not realistic. Maybe I could find a way, because this is TOO heartbreaking. :(