2 - 3 Month Stats

5/10/10

10 lb 12 oz

23.5 inches



5/25/10

11 lb 9 oz

1st Mother's Day

A couple pics from my first Mother's Day as a Mommy!! I would just like to say that I love my baby girl so so much! It's overwhelming how much I love her! She is the most beautiful, amazing thing that has ever happened to me! SO Blessed!!!!!!

Dear Stella

To my sweet baby girl,


You are getting so big, so fast. I just wanted to tell you how much I love you. You are the most amazingly special person I have ever met. You are such a blessing and a miracle. You have changed my life so immensely, but only for the better! You are so beautiful, and you get more beautiful every single day. I think back before you were born and how I could not wait to have you here. I was right, because it's so wonderful to have you as my baby! There are not enough words to ever explain how much I love you. I know that you are the reason I am here.


I am the luckiest!


Mommy

Stella's Baptism 4-25-10

Stella was baptised at Faith Lutheran Church on Sunday April 25, 2010. Her Godparents are Melissa Sinkhorn & Casey Westenhofer. The service went really well, she was good the whole time! Even when Pastor Richeson put the water on her head. She was actually stretching when he did it. A lot of family came to the baptism, Aunt LuAnn, Uncle Danny, Erin & Doug, Ben & Tara, Lisa & Craig, Aunt Carolyn & Uncle Dave, Melissa, Alex & Ellie, Aunt Christine, Andrew & Anna, David & Tina, Linda & Paul, John & Cindy, Casey & Nikki & Adam. Then even more people came to mom & dad's house afterwards. Jim, Lou Jenn & Natalie, Danny & MeLisa, Mike, Stephen, Billy & Theresa, BJ & Gracie. Check out all the pics here!

Pictures of Stella 4/20-4/30

Sweet sleeping picture :)

Super cute Leg Warmers

Brand new Paci

Ahh, I like this Bumbo seat!

Another sweet sleeping picture

Mama & Baby @ the Zoo

1st trip to the Zoo, she slept the whole time!

YAY!

Stress, Stress, Stress

So, it has been a while since I posted. Things have been stressful lately. The Friday before I had to go back to work, our fridge broke. We had to find a new (used) one. Then I had to start work & take Stella to Kiddie Kampus. I did post about that, ugh! But then on day 4 of her being at daycare, I went in at 12:30 to pick her up early. When I got there I could hear down the hallway that she was crying pretty hard. I assumed that someone was trying to comfort her, but when I got to the infant room, I saw her laying in her crib alone bawling. This is traumatic enough for a parent to have to deal with! But when I got to her to pick her up, she was laying there with her blanket covering her mouth. I know they did that on purpose to try to keep the paci in her mouth. Two other days that week they had swaddled her and put part of the swaddle over her mouth to keep the paci in. But those times, she had been sitting up in the swing. I was pretty much in shock. There had only been one person in the room at the time. She was over feeding another baby. I just don't think it's right that a 7 week old has to lay in her bed and cry for who knows how long. Don't even get me started on the possible suffocation that could have occurred! It makes me so upset to think about it. There was NO way I was going to take her back there. I had a breakdown and was crying to Jeff saying Please don't make take her back there...

Such a shitty experience. She is at an in home daycare right now, but as of June 1 my mom is going to be watching her!! YAY! Talk about a dream come true. <3

Then a couple days ago my pump started acting up. I was worried it was going to totally quit, and I would be SOL. Since I am pumping exclusively, that could have been very bad! I was searching around trying to find a coupon to Burlington Coat Factory because they had pumps on sale. So, if I had a coupon, it would be even less, and they are like $300. In my search, Lisa found out what I was needing and offered to pay for it. Once again, they (Lisa, Becky & Linda) were their to bail me out. It is so beyond helpful. I am so blessed to have so much help. The new Medela Pump In Style Advanced is AWESOME by the way! Stella was Baptised on 4-25-10 but I will start a new post on that!

Worst Day Ever

I had to leave Stella at daycare today. This is so horrible, how do people do it. It is just the worst feeling. What if this daycare sucks, how would I know? OMG I HATE IT! I cried at the daycare, and in the car. When I got to work, I went to open the side door like I was going to get her out, out of habit. I don't want her to be there with strangers all day. I feel really guilty that we are mainly using this place because it's cheap. It is only 10 a.m. I don't know how I am going to make it. I want her to be with me. I want to get a part time job and keep her with me more. Too bad that's not realistic. Maybe I could find a way, because this is TOO heartbreaking. :(