Don't Wanna Talk About It!

40 Weeks Pregnant

February 27, 2010

Letter to Stella

Dear Stella,
Hi, I am your Mommy. I just wanted to remind you that today is your due date. In case you have never heard of that before, that means you should be born today. Mommy is having a very hard time waiting to meet you. Your Daddy and I are very prepared for you to come into the world and join us. We have everything you need all ready for you. I have loved carrying you around for these 9 months. You are such a special blessing. We love you so much and hope that you are here soon so we can fall in love with you.
Love you,
Mommy

Learning

I am laying here trying to learn to be patient. Trying to let go of my need for control. I know this is an important step, something I will definitely need once Stella is here. I wanted to write some of the things I have enjoyed about pregnancy:

I've enjoyed having a healthy pregnancy without major complications
I have enjoyed knowing that she is a she and being able to get to know her in that small way
I have enjoyed some of the extra attention you get as a pregnant woman
I have enjoyed feeling her move and knowing she is safe

Some things I want to remember about this pregnancy:
I have really had a relatively easy pregnancy
Stella gets the hiccups quite a bit this last trimester
For the longest time she has been head down, butt on my right side, and feet on my left
I have had terrible heartburn
Stella has had a lot of things ready for her for months
I am so blessed to have this time with my baby

I really like this quote I found
Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.
-Robert Brault

So, tonight I am enjoying you, Stella, in my belly.

She is never coming!

Well, I am pretty sure Stella is never coming out! I tried the Scalini Eggplant Parm recipe Thursday night. It was a crazy, long ordeal (3+ hours) to make it, which consisted of the oven catching on fire, and it did NOTHING. It was pretty good though. I have been walking, but that just makes my lower back hurt. The last few days my upper back/shoulders & neck have been really hurting along with my head. Why was I so dumb to think I wouldn't get this far? It was just a feeling, I was sure. If I have to come back into this office NEXT Monday, on MARCH FIRST, I will be one unhappy camper. And that is putting it SUPER nicely. On a side note, whenever Jeff talks to someone about the baby, he calls her "The Kid". I do kind of hope he doesn't keep calling her that once she's born. Right now, I am playing a song for her, to try and coax her out. Buddy Holly, Baby won't you come out tonight. It is on a loop, only been going for about 15 minutes at this point. I wonder how long I can sit here and make her listen to it? At least a good solid hour. I am 39 weeks 2 days today, seeing Beth at 10:50. I think I am going to get a check today. Also going to check with her about how long past 2-27 I will be allowed to go.

38 Weeks & 2 days

I am doing better today. I am just keeping in mind it has to happen sooner or later. Taking one day at a time. It snowed a lot last night and today. Total we are supposed to get 5-9 inches or something. I stayed home from work because the roads are not good. Storms are supposed to put people into labor, but apparently I am immune to that. So, I am ready, prepared, totally confident just waiting for Stella to be ready!!

Starting to get discouraged

Ok, so I really thought Wednesday night that labor was starting. Obviously it was not. But since then I have been much, much more uncomfortable. I am just having a lot of emotions, and I am really down tonight. I had been keeping a good attitude, but it's faded. I WANT TO BE IN LABOR! I was doing good, taking it one day at a time, I don't know what went wrong today. My head has really been aching, and I did a bunch of rearranging in the kitchen. I am very tired. Maybe these sad feelings are just from exhaustion. I am going to lay down soon. As soon as this heartburn medicine has a chance to kick in. I really hope when I wake up tomorrow I don't still feel this crappy! :( I am 38 weeks today by the way. Stella is super duper low. In closing, I would like to say one more time, I WANT TO BE IN LABOR!

Me at 36 weeks. I will be 37 weeks tomorrow. FULL TERM! Yay! I also found out that my Group B Strep test was NEGATIVE, doesn't get better than that! lol That means no pole to pull around during delivery! Today is the 5th, my first predicted (by someone other than a doctor) delivery date. Also, last night I watched Everybody Loves Raymond and it was the episode where Deborah is pregnant with Allie, and they specifically say she has 3 weeks left. And then she goes into labor. She also has her in the police car, but hey. A sign is a sign! No sign of my mucus plug or anything though. She was being crazy active yesterday, and my back was bothering me way more. And I am for sure peeing more, but I know that is normal since her head is on my bladder, and she likes to put CRAZY pressure on it.